Struggling with sin is evidence of God's amazing grace at work in my life...

I am always searching for new things to satisfy new passions.
I am always waiting for new days to come with old fantasies in the form of a Hollywood movie.
Then I could really live...right?
Then I would have real meaning and substance in my life.
Then I would have purpose, identity, and real happiness.
Then I could love people the way that I imagine myself loving people.
Then I would be a "faithful" Christian.
Then I wouldn't sin as much or perhaps not even at all.
Then I would be like God.
This is how my thinking eventually breaks down.
My entire paradigm needs to be changed.
All of my passions and desires have my "happiness" and myself at the center.
All of my fantasies, perhaps even well-intended wants and desires, are functionally controlled by my desire to suit my own corrupt passions.
It is a vicious cycle that continually feeds itself.
I'm like a stupid dog who keeps chasing his own tail around.
"More! More! MORE! GIVE ME MORE!"
Thank God that he doesn't leave me in my sin.
He doesn't let me stay the same.
He breaks into my life. He is still at work removing the junk from my heart.
He is making me into the image of his Son,
the one in whom he finds Supreme delight and joy.
This is what redemption looks like. God breaking into real history, real time and space, to do and to be what men cannot and will not do for themselves.
Perfect obedience. Perfect righteousness.
God should kick my ass out of his holy presence and into the pits of hell, but instead he has come down in the person of Jesus to perfectly obey on my behalf and then He, himself, was cut off as my substitute.
What a crazy story in which I find myself!
The story isn't over yet.
It's still being played out with living characters and in real time, space, history!
I am comforted to know my Father in Heaven, Yahweh, The Creator God, The Only One True God, The King who has given me His only Son to fulfill His promises.
He has given me his Son in real time, space, and history; but, also, he has given me His Son in His Holy word-in the Bible.
And I can have full confidence in His promises and in his faithfulness to carry them out because His word is sufficient to know and follow Him.
I look forward to the day that I can be with Him and behold Him in the fullness of His glory.
But, I find comfort in knowing Him now, and that I can trust Him fully.
In Christ, the veil has been lifted.
In Christ, I reign as a Prince.
My allegiance belongs to Jesus, the Warrior-King.
"The Lord is a warrior."